Sunday, September 16, 2001 :::

Sitting around...1:42 AM...i've been awake for approximately 6 hours.
Homework? don't feel like it. Party? plans fell through. Sleep? HAH.

reason overpowers unreasonable power.

brock crystal lauren melo drew scott will brian frank juan john chris andrew john jeannie annie diego john meghan casey roberson chris kevin angela jen mary axel john jordan jason ryan scott john katie hector gorang cliff grant dave robbie denny anne eddie becky tj chrissy marcus mike brent steve jeff mike richie john brian amy kristin travis sean amanda beckie amanda jacob jason bonnie lindsey caitlin christine lindsey angela jessica natalie adina george lissa

i need more friends

it's so odd...i really can't seem to capture the skills required for social success. whenever i'm presented with an opportunity for conversation, it usually falls away, cuz i can't think of anything to say. i view it all as small talk...or am i simply stuck in my own little world?-cuz whenever something involving music is mentioned, i can talk for hours...or if it involves movies, or something else that i view as worthwhile. but chitchat...i dunno. it doesn't come naturally. this is why i will be a rock star, and talk to the entire world through my music. all that is needed is a connection, talented players, and a lyrical format that is perceivable by the audience. brock and i will achieve our dreams...because unrealized dreams are terrible, and in all seriousness, anything is possible if one wants it badly enough. brock and i want it.
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2:16 AM, and she's awake
swaying in some silent reverie
imagining all that could be
a starlit sky, a warm embrace
the gentle tide kissing her feet
beautiful and neverending
angels whispering secrets divine
weightless, pure, special

fall away into her eyes
a glimpse of utter ecstasy
untouchable, worthy of one
one that's out of reach
temporarily; not for long.

beauty beyond comprehension
so far from realization
it's in our hands
our eyes are closed
we'll see when we believe.
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yay! i'm getting tired! maybe i'll be able to get back on track after all!

i guess i'm going to keep this journal on 2 different sites for a while, until...i dunno...alksjd;lfjasl;djf. it's just...i like the layout on the other site, but i'm really comfortable on this site. also, i think that the layout on the other page causes my posts to be biased; colors affect attitude, of course, and since the other journal has blue all over it, it might influence me to shape my entrees into a softer, more passive format than originally intended. i dunno...i need feedback! -that's the other thing; the other site allows for "Notes," which are direct responses from people who view your entrees and have something to say about them. that'd be WONDERFUL to have...so maybe i'll wind up switching over to that one, after all. it's possible. probable, even, the more i think about it.

Cinnamon Toast Crunch is the best cereal ever made! I'm convinced!

Aight...i've been typing for about an hour. time to find some other way to utilize my creativity...maybe i'll sleep.

-goodnight?

::: posted by AJBrotz at 2:16 AM

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