Wednesday, October 31, 2001 :::

"Even when people sleep together, they're all alone." - Jean Luc Goddard's Breathless

wishing that a few more comments could have been made with regard to my last entry...

sex drive = ungood, and yet, "to deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human"

should i even attempt to defy nature? i seriously want to...but i am afraid that it may be doomed from the start...ah, the hell with it. i am breakin' out the big guns and going for it.

Sociology is really opening my eyes as to who i am, and how i have become. my parents are responsible for SO MUCH of my characteristic make-up...and although i am infinitely grateful for the vast majority of it all, there are definitely some traits that were passed on that i wish were not. drew, i am becoming less and less conservative by the day.

if one truly believes that everything happens for a reason, then there is no room for regret.
thoughts?

frank and i finally reached calm waters...and i came to terms with myself on certain personal habits and blindsided practices which i prefer to make excuses for rather than confront and change (but it is all so subconscious...to the point where i actually need people to bring things to my attention in order for me to realize them...so yes, this is something of a cry for help).

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! "Like, BOO, man..."

Rumors Lounge is no longer hosting concerts; Absent will have to find a new "haven." perhaps somewhere...*GASP*...downtown?

juan is coming up tomorrow...can't WAIT for that. that kid is special. one of my favorites.

is there a noun for being genuine? something like...genuinity...or...bah, i do not know. it just seems that there should be one. something better than "authenticity," although i have resorted to that word several times. PLEASE COMMENT...this dilemma is driving me insane. *the irritants of an "english major"*

do something scary today. freak out your roommate. frighten yourself with the assistance of a mirror. go watch a horror flick-but make sure it is a decent one...something genuinely disturbing (some suggestions: the Exorcist, Event Horizon, Requiem for a Dream, Stir of Echoes). tp a house. trick or treat if you want to; age is purely physical. go Halloween caroling. jump off of a roof into a pool. whatever you decide to do...de-stagnatize your blood.

"One, two, Freddy's coming for you...three, four, better lock your door...five, six, grab your crucifix...seven, eight, better stay up late..."

happy haunting...

::: posted by AJBrotz at 10:15 AM

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