Thursday, October 25, 2001 :::

stinging eyes

in all seriousness, i am very upset and disturbed by the deletion of the comments that used to illustrate my blog with the colors of all my friends. it was all actually quite important to me...and i just can't fathom someone randomly choosing blogs to delete comments from. apparently, there was no other way for the "webmaster" to maintain the site...but...i dunno. that just can't be. there must have been another way. it just isn't right. it's like tearing pages out of a diary. i suppose it's all fine, though...no point in regretting that which cannot be helped or salvaged. i'll start anew...we'll start anew.

man. i am REALLY tired. i hate beginning these things with such intent and ending so quickly with "i'm tired." i just hadn't posted in quite a while; anything of substance, anyway...so i wanted to get SOMETHING up here.

purchased "Morning View," the latest release from Incubus, today...i'm diggin' it. pretty mellow stuff goin' on here...definitely check it out.

SEVENDUST is still amazing me. i think i've pretty much downloaded the entire album; there's no way to check, since the official release date isn't until November 13th (which seems far away, but really isn't...GOD time flies.)

Absent is really exciting me lately...it feels like a brand new band. i feel much less repressed...like, my creativity no longer has the restriction it had when Frank was a strong contributor to the songwriting. That definitely sounds harsh...but what can i say? it's the truth. i always held back, in...fear (?) of increasing the intensity of the frown Frank directed towards my melodic tendencies. an ironic tinge to all of this is that between yesterday and today, i've basically finished what i think is probably the heaviest song i've ever written on my own. very excited about that. also, brock has some awesome stuff cookin' in his musical kitchen back in o-town...brian has been utilizing the 'net to send me samples of rockin' beats he's been putting together...and raudebaugh...well, raudebaugh is goin' thru some trying times right now, and i definitely sympathize. you'll get through it, bro...what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. i'm sure it'll inspire you to write some sweet lyrics, too, so if you become inspired, let the words fly!

all in all, i'm extremely pleased with how we've all come together as a band in light of the recent unpredicted occurences. it seems that frank has a fairly decent grasp on which direction he wants to go musically, as well...so that's awesome.

crystal's visiting later today, and her and i are going clubbing! RRRROOOOOOCCCCKKKKK.

everyone, if you haven't already, go watch "Rebel Without a Cause." Bask in the glory of James Dean's incredible persona...man, i'm completely intrigued...and the chick in the movie is pretty damn hot, too. but seriously...James Dean was one special guy. i'm gonna' have to check out some of the other films he was featured in, i.e. Blue Velvet. also, a teenage Dennis Hopper plays a role in "Rebel," so watch with prying eyes.

"I'm floating down the river..."

::: posted by AJBrotz at 2:43 AM

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