Thursday, June 06, 2002 :::

so...what's been goin' on for the past month. lots of working for my parents...much time spent at movie theaters...and, of course,
"Pizza in the mornin', pizza in the evenin', pizza at supper time!"

cinemania: Star Wars: Episode 2 was pretty freakin' awesome - on the DIGITAL PROJECTOR, of course. Spiderman was pretty tight...but NOT, i repeat, NOT as good as X-Men. Insomnia was very very good - Christopher Nolan has done it again, with the help of superb performances from Pacino, Willams, and Swank. The Sum of All Fears definitely surpassed my expectations - "Affleck was the BOMB in Phantoms," and I've yet to see a poor film that stars Morgan Freeman. Undercover Brother was incredibly stupid...but freakin' hilarious, nonetheless. Meghan and Steph walked out of the theater after 15 minutes of it...but i assure you, it is worth seeing. maybe not worth paying for...but worth seeing. Ocean's Eleven was decent...nothing to scream about, or even talk about, really. Harry Potter is entertaining...the Godfather was freakin' amazingwonderfulawesome...and The Ammityville Horror (sp?) was damn freaky. I highly recommend it if you're looking for a movie that's actually kinda' scary, since most "horror" movies fail miserably. GO was probably one of the best movies i've seen in quite a while...very well done. GO SEE IT if you haven't already. trust me...and if you can't trust me for some reason, trust in the beauty of Katie Holmes. there's an attractive guy in the film, too...but i dunno his name. tear.

work has been great, considering the small amount of work that i actually do. sometimes it's fairly intense, but most of the time, it's more of watching my dad and learning than actual labor. earning money is freakin' awesome...-and it's making me realize how much of my parents' money i've been spending while away at college. i really need to cut back. and...that's about it. oh...one cool thing coming up next week is that i'll be going out to work on Justin Timberlake's pool next week. "solid."

Absent is getting back into shape...we've played one show since i've been back, and we have another coming up at the Social (Sapphire Supper Club). i had better see EVERYONE I KNOW at that one. details should be available soon. we're still working on a new demo, courtesy of Will's friend Andrew, but i think that the best way for us to go would be to save up and pay to go back to the studio. i dunno...personally, i don't think we're quite ready for that, but...whatever. rock and roll, man.

this summer has been quite different from past summers...-primarily because practically all of my friends have romantic interests/involvements while i am completely without. it's crazy how lonely you feel when you're in a room, surrounded by couples, and all you have is a pillow to hold onto. i don't mean to bitch about it...but it's a new level of loneliness that i've never really experienced before, so it's worth writing about for a brief while. I long for a relationship...but at the same time, i know firsthand the consequences of romantic involvement for the solitary sake of having someone there when you need/want the comfort/touch/correspondance/COMPANY. all of that is extremely important and desirable, of course, but when it's grounded in nothing but greed and want, after a short while, everything turns to shit. so...i'm fighting off the urges, hoping for something new (or something old that will somehow appear newly attractive to me) to cross my path - something substantial. true potential has to be there before i dare make things kinetic.

as for Lauren, it's probably as obvious to everyone else as it is to her and me that nothing is going to come of it all. despite how hard i've fought against it, the truth is that we just don't click in that romantic, soul-sharing way...and i know that neither of us wants to settle for anything less than that specialness.

bought 2 books recently: Bram Stoker's Dracula and Mary Shelly's Frankenstein. I've been told several times before that i should read these classics, so i've made it a summer goal.

9 days until i turn 19. the most interesting thing about it all is the apparent decline in my birthday's importance. i guess it's one of those things that comes with age...but that just sucks, man. i remember being so freakin' excited about my birthday each year...and it's sad that the stereotypical growing-up-ness is taking place here. i'm trying to hold it at bay, but...something tells me that the battle is going to end in futility.

well...sorry if i bored anyone, but it'd been quite a while since i'd written anything in this thing. comments are welcome, as always. if anyone wants to get together and do something (anything), call me up on my cell.

Anne: i WILL call you soon. start thinking of things to do...
Island Crew 2002: $50 down payments are due, and the full balance is due by June 15th. Call me...
Drew: I miss living with you! We'll be roomies again in no time, though!
Komo: I fucking hate you, you heartless chimp! ROT IN HELL!

-aj

::: posted by AJBrotz at 11:35 PM

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