Monday, November 03, 2003 :::

I had an AWESOME time in Orlando, thanks to the best friends and family anyone could ever ask for.

Unfortunately, I did not attend the Anberlin show. Will had to bail out on me, due to schoolastic obligations, and I didn't feel like going by myself - half of my fun would have been to share my crazy-ass excitement with someone...rock out hardcore with someone...so, oh well. Next time...and there WILL be a next time.

On the Anberlin lyrics tip: I was unaware that the Cure originally wrote this song, and am currently downloading their version. It's always nice to see lyrics instead of merely hearing them (Anberlin's "liner notes" don't include any lyrics) - i noticed that I'd been singing "fun again" instead of "born again," and also noticed that you wrote "I'll never fall away" instead of "However far away," so thanks for that, melo...i suppose i'll go ahead and rewrite them out.

Love Song
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am born again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Robert definitely has a way with words... - See the lyrics to "If" on Saladfishman's blog. Great stuff.

I'm seriously wanting/trying to turn my life around in a number of ways, taking one step at a time...heading back to my true source of passion - music. Had an enlightening conversation with my dad yesterday, and it's awesome to know that even though he doesn't fully understand my dreams, he's behind me - as long as I create an actual path for myself that he can be behind. Long story short...I've always wanted to dedicate my efforts to becoming a proficient musician, but the thought of how competitive and corrupt the industry is has always discouraged me and caused me to look for other, seemingly-easier routes to take on my way to the real world. In the end, that's living a lie and wasting time. SO. What's my next step, after accepting this? Should I stay and finish out the Film degree and spend all of my spare time taking music lessons (voice/guitar/drums)? Yeah, that's a helluvalotof money I'm talking about...but I feel like I'm so far behind where I should be at in terms of musicianship, and if I took at least a couple classes simultaneously, I feel that they'd compliment each other. Primarily, I want to become skilled in reading music, to the point that I have little trouble "sightreading." Voice and/or piano lessons would help the most in this area, so maybe I should start there? Tossing ideas around helps, but I've got to grab on to at least one and make a start, or else I'll get nowhere. I've always taken the easy way out of situations... - it's easy to stay in bed...simple to take courses that deal with broad, ambiguous topics...easy to stay up late instead of forcing myself to get sleep...easier to skip meals than it is to fix myself something to eat. I have a long way to go...but I have to take one step at a time, cuz "weighing down my soul, the thought of it's too much - when I think about it all." Start thinking differently, start acting differently, and change my surroundings. This is what I must do. Eventually, I hope to be able to play music for a living - whether it's a regular gig somewhere for some company, or touring with a band, but first, I need to take steps towards becoming a better musician. Just have to figure out where to start, dammit. I'll make it happen. Even if I have to take some time off from school, I'll make it happen.

Elton John is SUPERB. Anyone who disagrees is either a homophobe or hasn't spent enough time with his music.

It'd be easy to keep writing in here, but I need to eat and get some homework done. Bring on the discipline...

::: posted by AJBrotz at 4:54 PM

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